Here comes the Sun

Today I started reading the book of Ezra. I'm not sure why, but I felt led to wander through its pages. I decided I'm going to read all the way through it. It's not very long so it won't take me very long but there are still good things to be gleaned from the Old Testament. [This is not really the point of the post, but context is always good, right?] ANYWAY... something that stood out to me in the first two chapters was how God brought about His promises. He didn't necessarily use the most optimum route for those alive during that time, but he did use the most willing vessel for his purpose which just so happened to be a pagan king. (lol wut) God used a non-christian to fulfill his purpose? You better believe it dude. Then it got me to thinking about the promises God has made me. It got me to thinking about the dreams that I have and all the things that have yet to come to completion in my life.

You're probably wondering what has God promised me, Nina Bee. Well, I am going to tell you, whether you like it or not. (If you don't wanna know, not sure why you're still reading this post but you do you.) God has promised me a husband, lasting & impactful friendships, prosperity in the scarcity, community, wholeness, and renewal in all seasons. WHOA. These are big promises God. Some have slowly started to manifest and others still have me wondering what the heck God is doing. It's not up to me to decided when what happens though. I just get to stick around for the ride. Sometimes the ride sucks because other people are getting promises and you're still in the waiting. That's okay. God didn't say waiting was going to be fun. God didn't say it would be easy to wait. God didn't say that I get to try and sidestep his will and manifest it on my own. But I can make the waiting fun and I can make it easier on myself by finding joy and not letting comparison steal my joy. God's promises are good and they are true and while I am still waiting on them... I know they are sure because God is faithful. AMMMMEEENNNN

I also felt God stirring some goals in my heart this morning and in the spirit of accountability I'm going to put myself on blast today. Goals for Summer2019 include but are not limited to:

1. To complete four summer classes with A's

2. To Journal and to Bible Study consistently

3. To work out or be active 3-4 times a week

4. BLOG, good grief.

5. Be open and responsive and vulnerable to opportunity

6. Be spontaneous

7. Go places ALONE (Lord help me) and be OK with that

8. Get too attached... devote myself whole-heartedly to relationships

9. READ LOTS OF BOOKS FOR FUNNNN

10. CREATE MORE ART (even if it sucks)

That's my heart this morning. I hope it encourages you to see the promises God has made to you and to see the hope that they can bring and not the disheartening the enemy tries to stir. I hope it also gives you some time to reflect on what God has done in your life and not just be "sad" about the things you're still waiting on. I hope it encourages you to make some goals, cause why not? And I hope your summer is off to a killer start because it's gon be a ride for me :)